Malakai had choosen me for joining. In his race it was a common practise, but rarely did they choose from outsiders. He had been drawn to my darkness he said, my exquisite raw pain, he wanted to heal me, he wanted to hold me and drain all the blackness away. He had apparently followed me on my evenings through the squares and plasma lit bars. He was a great comfort to me in the beginning. The embrace came naturally and I felt no anguish, no horror to what was about to happen. It was intimate and lingering. I finally felt like I had arrived home....that I had been excepted. Malakai had given me my soul back by taking it away.